Empty barrels make the most noise

I have this feeling that people are becoming increasingly conscious. and things are being increasingly created. 

that kids are becoming smarter at younger ages. more self conscious.

and i think there should always be this battle. to find out this question of “who am i”.

current education is to aid us in the things that determine how our lives are run, or to give us skills to contend in the world where the rules of how our lives are run are created. 

i have a belief that we should increase financial/business/accounting knowledge in highschools, and then legal knowledge in highschools as well. 
or at least make it a basic curriculum requirement in undergrad courses.  

Guilt and Shame

“One cannot truly conquer anything unless they’ve first conquered themselves”

Guilt and shame are interesting parts in our personality.

The pattern is usually, see some power or ability that is abused, and understand why it is being abused. and realize that it is abuse. 

But still, understand this power or ability enough to see that you can do it yourself. and then try it once. Shame may result from simply using the ability or power. And then, the use as many others do to take advantage of anyone else or for personal/selfish gain, in an irresponsible but knowing manner, results in guilt. 

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We shouldn’t regret the choices we make. They are all experiences.
They lead to a creation of a character.
And that makes us who we are.
If we never made these choices, we’d almost never do anything new.
And new, is what we are about. 

As long as you eventually try to correct your past actions, or, if that’s not possible, then you ensure that you try to do the most responsible thing you can in the future from that/this point on, you should not let that thing be a barrier in your mind towards any growth or freedom.

if you cloned an animal that died due to extinction. 

how would you feed it foods to ensure that its digestive system could handle breaking down the current day foods?

it seems reproducing the flora in their digestive systems are just ad important as reproducing them…

its funny how a few songs can bring back worlds of smiles and happiness.

• and i have this thing about. if i care about you. and you are part of my life.

• i’d never want to have to leave you.

• cause. i mean. if you like someone. and at one point they’re the most important thing to you, in your life

• you wouldnt want them to leave.

there’s that song by TI and whoever.
and everytime i try to remember to sing it.


ALL I DO IS WIN WIN WIN NO MATTAH WHAT
GOT MONEY ON MY MIND AND MY MIND ON MY BUTT. 

:(

craving hugs : ( 

god of fresh growth

of the new.

i beckon you.

your mantra returns with strength each moment i recite it.

an adversary of yours -  
the soul of tested and true
tried and tired
gold of old - 

i have hoped to ebb and flow between the positives between the both of you;
it is strenuous.  

I ask for a middle path. 
darkness and light meet nowhere in the middle;
there is no balance
the aggressor and defender forever at war.

i have studied with your adversary.
he tells me there is much to learn from you.
“He who follows the wave to appreciate its beauty lives forever never tasting of life.
He who rides the wave creates unimaginable wonders blissfully unaware of the repercussions.” 

Teach me to be wild, with reckless abandon, and infinite appreciation.
Give me the fruits of both worlds.
Give me the everlasting gold that constantly fleets from the soul of man in the pursuit for freedom. 
Turn this world of structure
To a blissfully connected dream.