So last night. Friends came over. They drank and left. I sorta just. Stuck around the neck and back sore/stiffness was painful. I needed a massage but i didnt say anything. I dont even know if it wouldve helped. Anyway. They left. And heres the first thin i remember in my dream.
So everyones hanging out. Then my dad comes down and says “nigga let me see whats going on here”. Fucking got me angry as hell. He was looking to see if i was drinking or drunk or indulging. And then he saw that i wasnt but was still angry. He cant move his emotions from one to another then he tried to grab me for what i thought might be a hug. I wasnt sure. I told him to speak calmly to me before he touched me and i pushed his outstretched arms away. Then i found myself in his dirty cluttered room. There was a cat there that i fed with a handful of almst dhal rice and fish. I slopped it on the floor and it ate.like 90% of it.
Dangit. I forgot the other paets of the drea
The tension in my neck and back,
Like rigor mortis before its time.
It kept me still, in bed
No person to help alleviate this
I was the one who attempted to do this for others
But for me, there seemed to be none.
But i fought. Not through the proper means
But of my own
Fire with fire.
Pain with pain
Only one could be the victor
And i sure as hell wasnt going to let it win.
First twerk ever. Lol
i have survived through something that may have been the end of me.
and i did so swiftly and effectively.
the only concern i may have, is that i may have not taken all the steps, and this thing may return.